Hello there

Forgot I had this.

I have 2 new friends 

They are great, we talk

All the time. However.

My mom. She is very much

Leech. Thief. 

She paid me back 200 dollars 

For all she owed me, she spent it all.

I didn't know until I tried 

To buy something online.

I don't think she loves me

As much as she says. I give 

Her everything, everything

I don't have or need and

Barely get anything in return.

It is like a child. You give and

They can't give back. She does

Not have job. Barely does much.

It sucks, I'm so tired of giving.

I will maybe make something

Creative later but I wanted to tell you

This. 

Sesume chicken

Things are always

Happening to me.

What a life.

My mind stops for no one

Gore is good.

It makes me

See things.

Differently.

Like life. My

Life. And 

People. And

Race. Gore

Makes me feel

Not like a good

Person. Racism

Is rampant you

Know?

Are you looking still? I don't think so

Do you hear me

Read my posts

My emails alerts 

Do you still wonder

About me reader?

Do you look for me?

I would hope so, even

Though I'm so boring.

I never have anything

Good to post anymore.

Sorry.

Refreshed

She gets me a drink 

Every morning. Isn't 

That nice. I have a

Cavity. A line in my 

Last back tooth on

The right. I haven't

Told my mom yet.

She made pasta today.

Today isn't hot so it's 

A good day. I wake up

Everyday at 6 in the

Morning. I have no job

To go to for this

It's not too late to change your hikikomori ways

I don't think I want

To change. Or to get

Better. Love me like

This. Sometimes I 

Want real life friends 

And to go out with

Them and have fun 

And get a job. I don't

Think I am good

Enough for that. Too

Pathetic to be seen.

I'm a overbearing

Parent's dream.

Listen to me complain

I'm laying here

Somewhat brainless 

There's snot on my arm

I'm not sick. My fan is

On. Spring no more 

I'm not allergic to

Anything. I need a 

Shower. My ear hurts

Three year infection 

I'm half deaf now

Parental negligence 

Will kill me